Goodbyes

Goodbyes make you wish you could go without leaving
Goodbyes are dark clouds that overcast the blue sky of the future and cry raindrops on the path of the present.
Goodbyes wear like a nagging pebble in your shoe, making it difficult to think of anything else on your journey.
Goodbyes are the question mark that punctuate a calling.
Goodbyes welcome a corresponding door of opportunity.

Bittersweet release

Here I am at the coffee shop, thinking that there’s just something melancholy about today.

Dark clouds sprinkle the sky, peppering brick storefronts with moving shadows. Somehow watching the sun and rain play tag makes me not want to go.

I got my ticket today; I’m excited! ecstatic! but also nostalgic. Am I ready to introduce another home to my heart? Can I really say goodbye to life as it is?

These aren’t doubts exactly because I already know the answer to these questions is “yes.” But must feeling fulfilled in a calling always be preceded by a bittersweet release? Perhaps I just want to have my cake and eat it too…

Unsafe

Let me go.
Let the icy wind
Seep into my shelter.
Let me shiver.
Let me cry.
Let adversity swirl
Around my ankles.
Let me struggle
And be afraid.
Let unconditional Love
Illuminate the way.
Let me be unsafe.